I listened to this album for the first time in my senior year of high school. I was expecting some Neutral Milk Hotel type arrangement. When I finished the album, I just felt depressed. Not the kind of self-pitying depression that makes oneself feel important and real, like you get from The Smiths, either. The kind of miserable where your heart just sinks into your chest and you realize that you are just an insignificant ape-thing on a rock in outer space, hurtling towards towards inevitable destruction. And that everything you think and feel is just a temporary distraction. I really think that's what Phil Elverum strives for in this middle period of his career. To force the listener to grasp the inconsequentiality of their existence. You could get mauled by a bear and the world will just keep turning.
Nowadays, it seems like Phil's views on life are more measured and nuanced. Obviously, we mean something to someone, so therefore, our lives must have some kind of meaning. That's what A Crow Looked At Me and NOW ONLY are about, I think. So yeah, when you're young, maybe stick to Camus and The Smiths before plunging one's fist into a more morbid interpretation of absurdism.
The fact that this album is about the narrator getting dumped by his girlfriend, dealing with the depression aftewards, then going into the woods and getting mauled by a bear makes it a lot more depressing. Still a great album though!
So good. it's been years. I got to play drums for Phils set about 14 years ago. I was so nervous and honored. I love this music/album and hope ya enjoy it. And thanks for making it available, too.
I remember listening to this while on a bus to sweden. It was literally the perfect aesthetic to listen to this record. The snowcovered trees in the dark forest outside. The atmosphere. The moon. I remember almost falling asleep when suddenly. SAMURAI FUCKING SWORD LITERALLY GAVE ME A HEART ATTACK.
I love this album, but the title track was jammed a lot by me back in college when I was going through serious suicidal depression. That was around 2009 when the album was re-released on double cd. I still jam it though and my depression isn't bad like it once was. I can appreciate the album more with a love for the creative aspect of it and not the necessity of needing to listen to it to feel something. I used to do the same with Nick Drake and Joy Divison...