You're sleeping night and day
How'd you do it
Me I am wide awake
Feeling defeated
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I know it's not working
I'm no holiday
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
We just got nothing
Nothing left to say
Another year gets away
Another summer of love
I don't know why I care
We miss it every summer
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I'm the one doing this
There's no other way
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
I just got nothing, nothing left to say
It all, all catches up to me
It all, all catches up to me all the time
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I know it's not working, I'm no holiday
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
We just got nothing, nothing left to say
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I'm the one doing this, there's no other way
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
I just got nothing, nothing left to say
It all, all just catches up to me
It all, all catches up to me all the time
"Guilty Party"
You're sleeping night and day
How'd you do it
Me I am wide awake
Feeling defeated
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I know it's not working
I'm no holiday
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
We just got nothing
Nothing left to say
Another year gets away
Another summer of love
I don't know why I care
We miss it every summer
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I'm the one doing this
There's no other way
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
I just got nothing, nothing left to say
It all, all catches up to me
It all, all catches up to me all the time
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I know it's not working, I'm no holiday
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
We just got nothing, nothing left to say
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I'm the one doing this, there's no other way
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
I just got nothing, nothing left to say
It all, all just catches up to me
It all, all catches up to me all the time
You're sleeping night and day
How you do it
Me I am wide awake
Feeling defeated
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
Oh it's not working
I'm no holiday
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
I just got nothing
Nothing left to say
Another year gets away
Another summer of love
I don't know why I care
We miss it every summer
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I'm the one doing this
There's no other way
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
We just got nothing left to say
It all, all catches up to me
It all, all catches up to me all the time
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
I'm the one doing this, there's no other way
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
I just got nothing, nothing left to say
I say your name
I say I'm sorry
No it's not working, I'm no holiday
It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
We just got nothing, nothing left to say
It all, all just catches up to me
It all, all catches up to me all the time
How hard it is to realize a relationship is not working anymore. Even if you know is going to break you inside more than for the other, to break up with that person. To listen to reproaches and to see sadness, knowing that with time, that person will be the first one, because of anger, to move on. Ironically, to see this accomplished. Still. How hard it is to stay true to yourself, and be blamed for it.
I just listened to this song 20x in a row...and each time, my heart broke open wide...tears flowing from my eyes...a cathartic release of pain and disappointments I thought I had moved past. THIS is the POWER of hauntingly vulnerable and beautiful music.
I remember the first time I saw The National live at Shaky Knees...I started bawling the very first song...it was so profound and I felt so embarrassed. Thank you for the gift of your gorgeous music. ~♡
Every time I'm going through a really tough break up The National seems to drop a new album. Coincidence? I think not. You're all welcome for having such a troubled love life. They just keep releasing music to help me through.